Monday, March 23, 2009

well, it sure has been a while...

so, i haven't been blogging...  

there are a few reasons...

1) i got a bit tired of writing about my children and, sort of, wanted to "reclaim" my blog for myself.  i decided i needed to write about what i was reflecting on, what i was learning, etc. and, then, i realized that self-analyzation doesn't always make for the best blog posts.  at one point i began a post entitled "i don't like me very much right now"; only to erase the entire thing. sometimes you just don't want all your baggage aired online.  so, i don't know what i'm going to do about all this, but i'll figure it out.

2) baby graham has been a really difficult baby.  i'm not gonna lie, life has been really trying for the past six weeks.  well, really, for the past four months.  i'm quite sure that the transition from one to two would have been hard...but graham's crying has made it almost unbearable.  i haven't wanted to write about it.  i don't want to document it.  when it's over (and i know it will be over one day), i want to forget it.  and, most of all, i want to acknowledge the sweet, happy moments rather than the crabby ones.  as my mother always used to tell me, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all".  that has been my mantra for a while now.  and i'm sincerely hoping and praying that i'll get to write LOTS of sweet, happy things soon!

3) we've been busy...and sick...and busy.  : )  life continues on.  every mom knows what that is like.  we've been to the doctor WAY too many times in the past six weeks.  i turned 32 and had a fabulous birthday, thanks to my sweet husband.  we are preparing to celebrate harrison's 2nd birthday, which seems impossible. we took the boys to the zoo over the weekend and it was awesome.  harrison's favorite animal seemed to be the mongoose.  : )  graham enjoyed riding in the stroller.  the weather has been beautiful and we have played outside nearly every day.  these are just a few of the little things that have been "up at the white house".  

so, until next time, america...

5 comments:

Courtney said...

well I "get" you totally. and I am so sorry that Graham has been a crier as I know personally how overwhelmingly consuming that can be. Hang in there. I hate it when they say "this too shall pass" because that's the last thing you want to hear...but it does. and thankfully the good Lord takes mommy's memories away of all the yucky...well most of it all anyway. You'll remember you didn't like it much but you won't remember the details and that is good. :)

miss hearing from you. post pics...pics are good and you don't have to say anything about them...1000 words all by themselves...and if there are a few of g man crying, we'll all get it! :)

love ya

Dalene said...

We miss hearing your witticisms! It's hard to feel like blogging when you're physically and emotionally exhausted.

I can see my blue periods by looking back and observing how little I blogged. If I posted stuff when I was glum, I'm sure I'd regret it later. It has happened, but not as often as I FEEL like posting!!!

Two cheers for peaceful days and nights....

Christy said...

Feeling a little like throwing in the towel myself over here. Just know you're not alone. And, if you've noticed... not much blogging going on either. :)
Nobody wants to hear those thoughts. I mean...Nobody.

LOL...

denise said...

I am so glad you shared! Chandler cried all the time the first 6 months. I never thought during that time that he would be a happy person. You know him! He is he happiest and energetic person that I know. Praise God that often times in infancy that is not who they will grow up to be. I am praying and thinking of you often.

Sarah said...

Hey-just post some pics of the kids every now and then. I haven't posted much either. I've been sleep deprived and working LOTS.

Miss you!